torn

How did I get to this point in my life
Love really does cut like a knife
Torn between two ;both dear to my heart
Now I must choose, one gets my heart and other departs

Both of you radiate my soul
I need the two of you in my world
Can't live a double life though
It's too abnormal to do.

I try to weigh the two
But its a stupid thing to do
Using logic here will not help
I wonder how long will I yelp

What do I do? where do I turn
No matter what my decision someone is going to get burned
Do I stay? or do I go
What will my life bring tomorrow

Perfect Death

Why desire for a perfect life
It doesn’t exist
Life must come to an end
Like all things do

Emotion soaring sky high
Entangled rope of treasure
Holding on tightly to life
Never willing to let go

Life always betrays you
Chokes onto your freedom
Drowning you in pity
Despair and gloom

Death is waiting for you
Always lurking around
At each nook and corner
Eternal, unswerving

Death is inevitable
It will cover you
Under its dark cloak
Greet you with glee

The blood will cease to flow
The eyes will cease to glow
The skin will turn pale
Lungs will no longer exhale

Embrace of deathly cold
Silent, sweet and painless
I die each night
For death and I become one

Be it in a pit of snakes
Or run over by a train
Falling from a cliff
Or a slit on the vein

I die each night
Just a roseate scratch
Shining yet obscure

Death is in me
Yet I Desire
Not for a perfect life
But for a perfect death

Still, I'll miss you

The sun dissolves and bids a final farewell
As I silently stand alone in the darkness of hell
Reliving dark moments of stories I can’t tell
Spiralling down, only I will know where I fell

I know you belong with me
but that might never be
But I miss you
Yeah I miss you

Sadness consume my already tattered soul
From within, slowly darkness begins to take hold
I stare into the sea of moments untold
Too tired to wage battle, I succumb and lose my soul

On the outside I smile
But that is just lie
Coz I miss you
Yeah I miss you

With clenched fists I close my eyes
A fool was I for believing I could fly
Standing in the centre of blue and gray skies
I walk a fine line where the darkness hides

There is no one to blame
But me, what a shame
And I miss you
Yeah I miss you

I will disappear and bid a final farewell
Silent and alone in this darkness of hell
Dark moments of stories I won’t tell
Only I shall know where I once fell

I know you won’t be there
My angel, my fairy
But I’ll miss you
Still, I’ll miss you

Addicted

Just a few drinks and I am not sober
You say I must mend my ways, quit bibber
I'm reaching high, reaching for that fairy in the sky
The one who will wipe my tears when I cry

I know you have priorities
There are things you have to do
I'm not angry, just sad
there's little place for me

Every time I hear the ringing of the phone
or see your name pop up online
strange feelings and emotions are imbrued
Because I feel I'm addicted to you


You are so close yet so far away
I wonder how to be with you always
I try as hard as I can do
I know that I am addicted to you

Miss U

I miss you like a fish on dry land
misses the fresh water of the pond
Gasping for oxygen, can't survive
It's time here is over, must travel beyond

I miss you like a night misses the moon.
Stars hang suspended in a black sky
Clouds break into tears, raindrops fall
They are lost in reminiscence, cry

I miss you like the fallen leaves
lying on the ground, scattered and sodden
miss the tree they used to sway upon
Getting trampled, souls downtrodden.

I miss you like a man who can't see
a blind, misses his precious eyes
Bright and vivid images all around
To smell and touch them he tries

I miss you like a mouth with no tongue
has its thoughts caught up in the mind
It can't express all these muted feelings
words left unspoken and all left behind

Enlightened

The mind is at sea of tranquility with a chaos undefined
Frothing waves come to the shore to rest and unwind
The end is calming, blurry morning follows a chaotic night
On a heap of garbage I reflect...its time to set things aright

I just need some time

I never knew I could be so wrong,
but you showed me.
I never thought I could be so heartless
but then "they" made me.
I love the way you love me,
and I couldn't stand if you didn't.
I know I can't be with you
but don't you ever dare leave me.
I'm used to your love,
And I'm used to not showing mine.
But I love you, and you know it

I just need some time
Time to figure things out
Time to show my siblings the path
Time to make my career, sing and dance
Time to show my parents you are not what they think you are
Then I'll be yours, you'll be mine, forever and ever, till eternity