sunless garden when the flowers are dead

One winter evening
I saw you in the neon glow
I thought you will stay forever
that you will never go.

With every breath you took
air seemed a little sweeter
With each and every sunrise
Earth seemed a little brighter

So beautiful, so incredible
I still wonder, its still a mystery
Was it a dream? Or was it real
Lost in the memories, lost in the reverie

The wind rustles the leaves
The grass gets burnt by the sun
For nature and for me
Spring has now been done

This part may not be forever
keep in touch through the days
I will treasure your laughs and tears
while we are on our separate ways

My mind is in a state of trance
engulfed in thoughts that you still care
Nothing above me as I fall asleep
my spirit is tattered and bare

The darkness brings endless sorrow
tears roll down onto my bed
Without you, O my sun
I am like a sunless garden
when the flowers are dead

Still in love with darkness

Still feel like life isn't worth living. Still feel like staying in bed because just couldn't face the day. This feeling has dragged on and on with no end in sight...the feeling of being in an endless slump. Need to stop damaging behaviour before repercussions take place. Still wait for the dawn to break, for time to heal me.

Both in nature, in our lives, it’s always darkest in the absence of light. On a personal level, when I am depressed especially when facing challenges, it is up to me to make things better by making a conscious decision to let some light in. I don't have to sit around, waiting for the breaking of dawn, waiting for time to heal me. It is a conscious decision that I must make to allow light to brighten my life, and let the "dawn" of a new day light up my life and my mood.

Only in embracing the deepest sorrow can we also know the deepest joy. Without the light of understanding these painful emotions, we return to an endless cycle of depression. Here we continue the habit of hurting ourselves inside and those outside us, as they may suffer in seeing us suffer.

No I wont give up No I wont give in.

Pinpoints of light in distance can be seen

It invites me towards itself

numbing the state of depressed consciousness

Oh but I still am still am in love with darkness.

Knight in Shining Armor I

On this Earth full of sorrow and pain

You need someone to get through the rain

Someone who warms the heart when it is cold

Someone who gives you wings of gold

Someone who wipes all your tears

Helps you overcome your fears

Someone who keeps coming back

Until your life is back on track

Someone who melts a heart of stone

Who helps you find your way back home

Someone who always treats you right

Be it light of day or darkness of night

Someone who loves you for what you are

Makes you feel like you can touch the stars

Someone who keeps your secrets true
No matter what, will not desert you

Someone who protects you from mongrel and cur

Someone you can call your Knight in Shining Armor

In love with darkness

I can understand I am insane when I close all the doors and windows before it is sunrise. I ensure all nooks and crannies are sealed.I never turn on the lights, keep the brightness of my laptop to a minimum, and punch the wall to feel the knuckles. I perfectly understand I am insane, and for a considerable amount of time too.

Its been days since I've left the confines of my room. I rarely sleep or eat, and drink a lot.

What exactly is my situation?

I notice how dark I am becoming-spiritually and emotionally. Darkness and my life have become synonymus. I stay in the dark so that people around me...the very few who still care...cant see my tears. Depression is Satan's stronghold in my life. He exploits this stronghold in an effort to make me ineffective, disobedient, withdrawn, and flat-out-angry at God. I am angry, very angry.

All those who have ever loved and lost can understand this anger, which soon transforms into pain. Why me God? Why me? What have I ever done to offend you? Why did you do this to me?

Where it used to be an affirmation of love, now it is a question.

Where it used to be a celebration, now it is a mourning.

Love makes you so vulnerable. No matter how many castles and moats you build so that it cant hurt you, it still manages to sneak in, eats you and leaves you crying in the darkness. It gets inside you and rips you apart.

All this for what? A few silly moments when you feel you own this world and nothing can stop you now? When you were so happy you wish someone should have killed you then and there and spared you of the pain.

But time is a great healer, they say. And I sit and wait in the darkness, to be healed.

I'm in love with darkness of the night.

I'm in love with all that's out of sight.

I hate the colors and their hue.

And the darkness loves me too.

We only part to meet again

The trees that grow on the mountain
All go their separate ways.
Some are born to be carved into saints,
Some as charcoal end their days.
-Spanish rhyme. One of the best things about college is all the great friends that we've made.Whether cramming all night for an exam, planning a party, or stressing out about future, our friends were there to make the bad times better and the good times great. If you have two close friends or if you have twenty, you are a better person because of them.
Yes, we may be going separate ways, but that doesn’t have to mean the end of the friendship. It’s a big adjustment to make, going from seeing your friends every day to only seeing them every other week, every few months, or once a year, but it makes the time you do spend together more special: We'll spend hours catching up, talking about everything and nothing.

"Goodbyes are not forever.

Goodbyes are not the end.

They simply mean I'll miss you

Until we meet again!"

Subah-e-Benaras

Morning is the best of all times in Varanasi. The Sun appears in the sky in crimson color.Sweet vapors rise from the earth. Birds call to one another and devotees take dips in the Ganges River with the reverberation Har Har Gange.

We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness. And what a glorious sunrise it is...each day...every day...here in Varanasi

Are You There Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea

The moment that Didier Drogba profited from Steven Gerrard’s ‘misplaced’ back pass was the moment that I (and many around the country no doubt) resigned myself to the fact that the Premiership crown would probably end up at Stanford Bridge this season.

Chelsea romped to the Premier League title on Sunday as they beat 10-man Wigan Athletic 8-0 with a hat-trick from Didier Drogba and a double from Nicolas Anelka. Drogba snatched the golden boot right off of Wayne Roony's foot and Chelsea also broke Man U's season scoring record.It's all over. Chelsea are the champs. Back and front...up and down...she was truly unstoppable.

I am sure that Man U fans will have a few things to say about everything from a foul throw to a missed free kick...but there is no point in whining. But we do have a long, long wait till next season to commence.
Chelsea deserved to win the league, but so did Man U .

"You've done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination."-Ralph Martson

Go Man U...EPL 2011 beckons

its near

Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore, so do our minutes, hasten to their end. Last theory exam is over. We have reached the end of an era. But we should try and make the most of the little time we have left. Here are a few suggestions.

One last night out at ghaat.

Play it loud. So loud that it shakes the foundation of the hostel.

Look out for "VASOOLI BHAI"...be it the mess maharaj, the newspaper hawker,the dhobi or anyone else. Run for your life at the sight of any such people.

Burn all books and notebooks, make a bonfire and dance around it like nuts (P.S. if you run out of paper, hostel furniture can be used as a substitute, and empty deo bottles can be used as crackers)




Drink. Drink whisky, drink vodka, drink scotch, drink rum, drink beer, drink wine. Drink whatever comes your way.Drink more...and more. After all college is like a fountain of knowledge - and the students are there to drink . And we must inebriate as much as possible before we leave

The tets of enjoyment is the remembrance it leaves behind.

I am really gonna miss this place.

I am gonna miss my college days.

Fuc|{ Liverpool

"Instead of liverpool is crap i think its better to say that crap is liverpool .It generalises the crap thing "

This is 2010. It is not 1980. Liverpool were the best team in England, maybe even the world around 30 years ago. But that just isn't relevant anymore. So please don't tell us about your former glories because it doesn't count in the Premier League era.
Carragher sounds like Donald Duck. It's annoying. He's also not as good as Liverpool fans make out. He is not better than Rio Ferdinand and John Terry. Gerrard is annoying as well. A Hollywood player who seeks headlines and personal glory instead of putting the team first. I'm telling you, get rid of Gerrard and you will win the League.

And dont even get me started about fans of Liverpool. They are the most annoying species ever to have roamed on the surface of the Earth.

Q: What do Pool Fans and sperm have in common?

A: One in 2,000,000 has a chance of becoming a human being.

It seems like they do not love Liverpool as much as they hate Man Utd. Its Liverpool v Chelsea and half of them are supporting Chelsea. Way to go....

Liverpool without Torres are not even a mediocre team, as they have shown us today. 18 wins out of 36 .Bravo. It seems that Liverpools days in the big four are definitely over. Good luck playing in the Europa league for the years to come.